2004-07-14 - 9:24 p.m.
its a wednesday night. im sat on my own bored. i dont do this very often but i thought that if i only did it the few times i have then what was the point of me being on here? so here i am.
many things have changed about my life since the last time i wrote in here. i no long have a boyfriend who was my soul mate. i now have a best friend instead. as good as i guess!!!! i miss him dearly but there is nothing i can do about it so i leave my heart where it is and move on. i am at uni still, barely, but im still there. i have met some very interesting people over the past year and now i am beginning to see what it is like to find true friends and to want to keep them. my nanna has died from emphasimia (i think thats how you spell it) and that has left a hole in my heart that nothing has yet been able to feel. no one really knows what happened to me when she died, how i felt or how well i actually took it. not even my then current boyfriend. i dont think i have ever had the strength to tell people how my heart really broke the day i laid her to rest. i dont think anyone will.
i have moved house twice. once from uni to town as i should have after the first year of my education. the second is in progress. from malaysia to germany. and thats really about it. well almost. tell you the rest later......hehe x
