2005-12-18 - 12:46 a.m.
i dont know, i guess im just content at the moment. i love a certain amount of things. do i love me, no but i am sure that i used to. surely. i must have done. i can remember summers of loving me and knowing that i was ok. i can remeber the smell of the summer. i can remember the taste of summer and the feeling of it being warm enough to ware a strappy top for once. i can remember when the sun used to go down at about 9pm and how Bath looked from the top of the hill. radiant, a beautiful lady getting ready for a party. light flickering off the many windows that occupy the spaces.
now, i dont get time to look. i do when th sun is out, when i am still and im awake enough to nothice the world around me. i love Bath and i love England. the people i have met here have been some of the most life changing. a friend of mine is getting married soon and im so excited. anyway thats besides the point. i love everyone and once someone smacks me out of my depressive stage im sure ill start to love myself again. we shall see!!!TTFN
